I hear you with the hiding wine in a can!! I hid it everywhere!! Ripped linings of bags out so it wasn't visible when I had the bottles in my bag, the misery and hassle I went through just doing that must have aged me by ten years! Some of the extremes we go to just for a crappy drink.
You'll get there in time, just write how you feel here, everyone really understands.
Stay strong.
One day at a time.
L x