. I am at war with myself, and drinking is a way to numb those feelings instead of dealing with it.
Hi and welcome! I really get what you said above. Everyday I was at war with myself, so you know what I done?! I threw in the towel, I gave up on everyday being a living nightmare. Where can I get drink, how can I hide it, acting normal, feeling Ill, hating, infact despising myself, feeling paranoid, not looking after myself and generally not being me.
I'm only 20 days sober but it's day and night to 21 days ago!
If you want this you can do it.
One day at a time.
L x