Oh Nuu Ive missed your writing, you have the ability to transport with your words. You are a wildly talented woman. And strong very very strong. Ok that being said, from the nuu we all use to know shed never speak of having such a relationship! I don't want to paint you into that box with that statement but, trust your gut! Yes those early months are very much a full time job. It won't always be that way but, having a relationship that is equally a tremendous amount of work may not be worth the risk of your recovery. But only you know who is good for you.
I also wanted to tell you I'm damn proud of you and I'm really glad you're back!