Durf, it sounds like you have been through a lot. I was addicted to hydrocodone for 20 years. I am 18 days clean today. The last two years of my addiction I took 12-14 at a time, as many times a day as possible. Sometimes up to 50 if I could get an rx. There was no limit to how many I would take. The WDs get better. It takes time. You have to be strong. It's hard. Fight for it! I am here with you.