Vent away Durf....that is why we are here as we can often relate to what you are going through. And it sounds like you have been through a lot! I've known folks who have used medical marijuana; it works for some and others it doesn't. Marijuana isn't an opiate...it is actually in it's own drug category but I would suggest talking with your doc about that. I take Cymbalta and have for many years. It helps with my pain as well as with my anxiety. But that is me. We are all different. Best thing to do is stay in touch with your doc which it sounds like you are. As you know, often folks who have to use pain medication develop addictions so I think you are in the right place to learn more and gather information as well as support. Glad you are here!