Good for you, G, I think that's great that you have the courage to seek out an Al-Anon meeting! Your story touched me because I, too, grew up with addiction, in my case my parents were both alcoholics. I realized after getting involved in a very painful relationship with a cocaine addict that I had learned some habits as a kid dealing with my parents that ran very deep--that I had become a fixer and was getting a lot of my self worth from trying to rescue people. There is a better way to live. If you stick with it, I think Al-Anon will help you to take good care of yourself no matter what happens with the addicts in your life.