Hi :)
I am new here and have been watching this site for awhile. I love how everyone is no honest and forthcoming on here. A little about me: I grew up with two alcoholic parents and vowed to never be like them, but here I am. I didn't starting drinking alcoholically until much, much later in life. I had a very rough childhood, we were very poor, moved constantly because of the abusive relationships that my mother was in, molestation and pure chaos.
I ended up graduating from high school. first one to go to college in my family and felt very optimistic about my future. I married young, had a great husband, children, home and security. Then out of the blue I developed an eating disorder and started drinking constantly. I brought pure chaos to my family and my poor children. I have been sober over a year and I still consider suicide on a daily basis. I feel no self worth anymore and am really still only in this world because I don't want to hurt my family, not because I want to here.