Originally Posted by
ScottFromWI 
I'd say that in a roundabout way, your post basically says that you value your binge drinking more than you value your relationship. Is that how you actually feel or what you actually want?
Scott, thanks for your response. You are absolutely right, part of me does value the drinking more than the relationship. That is shocking, and awful.
I've tried to explain to my partner that my drinking is my problem, and no reflection on him....it's a psychological problem I have. But I know that 'no man is an island' and that drinking to excess is horrible for the people around me.
I just don't know what I'm going to do.....I know that I need to quit drinking, no good is ever going to come of it, I'm chasing away people who love me (even my own parents).... But equally the thought of never having that outlet or escape route from my emotions is terrifying to me.