jellybean, your decision to use this site is a good one. as with any forum, some info will apply. some will not. its your actively seeking information that counts.
if you are drinkin like that, and seeking help now, you could possibly avoid a nasty "bottom".
if you havent heard of this,"rock bottom" is the end point where reality forces the user to entertain sobriety as a lifesaver. i think AA may have been the origin of this. -any way, rock bottom looks different from all of us. you can choose to pay attention to current affairs and jump off the tracks before being injured or killed.
i stayed on the tracks until i got severely "dented". LOL!