How reassuring
I don't know if I thought to myself a couple weeks ago that I was giving up alcohol forever. I think I just hit rock bottom and wanted to release myself from the constant obsession, guilt, shame that alcohol brought me. It always seemed like my best friend in the afternoon but then was my worst enemy the day after. I guess I don't know how to define myself. Sober for sure but forever? I think I may have to be. I can't control myself, I never have been able to. I never stop drinking after two drinks. I always black out. It has been something that is joked about amongst friends and co-workers. It's almost like it was accepted. There is no place for it in my life now. I need to be a mother and a wife and enjoy life. I wasn't with alcohol. I was temporarily for the 2 hours I drank. Thank you so much for the words of encouragement. I'm glad to be on here.