Thanks grace...now on day 19 and I'm doing ok. I used drugs and sub to get through the work day for so long that finding motivation and the energy to work at the level I'm used to is the hardest part for me. This is the longest I've been clean since the devil started on me so not sure how long the lazy feeling will last but I'll keep you updated on everything. I used subs as a crutch for years and I'm sure if I regret gojng that route or not. The dread of w/d was definitely worse than the w/d themselves. I had some very weak moments but luckily I ended all avenues to find anything before I started knowing id get weak at times. I'm treating this problem like a disease and telling myself that like cancer, I can't be symptom free in 3 weeks. But for anyone reading if I can make it 19 days so can you!!!
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