I think im currently on a journey of self sabotage and cant work out why. I came home from work and almost straight away started an argument with my wife. I proceeded to stomp out and drove straight to my local bar.....i sat outside for about an hour and a half fighting with myself about going in or not. Then I eventually drove home. The sabotage bit is that I ran through that scenario in my head while sat at work today, im pretty sure I started the fight just to drive to the bar.....tbh when I drank storming out to the pub wasnt even something I did so not sure why it felt so natural today. My head is a real shed at the minute.