hi Kyles and welcome back!
sounds like maybe its time to get back to your meetings? I am sure its hard to do, but online is really convenient.
I feel so badly for those people , like you, who are so tired of all the hassle, but don't know what to do.
Stick around, Kyles. There are still lots of the 'old gang' here, who will be glad to offer their experiences and support, and hope too.
hang in there. Time helps us to see what we need to do, after we have taken off the rose colored glasses.
take care of yourself, and your sweet baby girl. and congrats on your next little love on the way. things can get better sweetie.