I'm so glad you made it over that hurdle MM - it's good you wanted to discuss what happened. It's helpful for all of us.
At 3 mos. sober I was still having those thoughts. It's to be expected. Remembering the good times we had & feeling resentful is normal - & it's hard to be brutally honest about where it led in the end. I know for me there'll never be a few nice, civilized beers. It cost me dearly to find that out. I'm almost never tempted now - it does get easier as you continue on your sober journey.
