Thanks dandylion
. I know he's still in denial to a certain degree, knowing that is not the same as fully accepting it
I'm battling a couple things, new mom isolation (my kids are 2 and 3, so I'm JUST NOW coming out of the "baby" bubble) and so far I haven't been completely open and honest with anyone. I need to talk to my mom. She was in my shoes obviously, since my dad is an alcoholic. I'm taking steps to cure the first issue. I recognize I need to take time for myself, and that I need to re-establish positive friendships I have let fall on the sidelines. So I will keep working on making ME happy, and remain supportive, and try to have realistic hopes. Coming here is a good first step to getting help for myself. I've considered counseling, it's helped me with anxiety issues in the past.