I know , Sunshine, that your heartache is big.
I am guilty of avoiding the heartache when I can, and it has been a lot of enabling on my part. I am here to get stronger, wiser, and to do the right thing for my son and myself.
Its not easy, not even hard, but nearly unbearable at times. But finding that serenity helps. it makes sense, and feels right, when I get my head together. My fears are my biggest hurdle, I think.