You guys are all right. I just had a few hour talk with a friend that has known the ins and outs of our relationship and while she won't tell me what to do she thinks me getting away from him would be best. Even if alcohol isn't involved he isn't the partner that I need. And based on his behavior, 2 weeks ago he was an alcoholic and couldn't control the drinking, now he can have a 6 pack here and there, I see where this is leading. I told him I am done and I need to stick with that. Look forward. Look to the future and move on to happier times. Nothing will change if I stay besides me. If I change anymore I won't recognize myself any longer.