Good luck with the detox CheeseQ. It might be embarrassing if people find out you're in detox/rehab/whatever again, but you will live through it.
I think many of us here know what it's like to feel compelled to drink even though we don't want to any more and we'd do anything to stop. I thought the only way I could stop drinking was if all the alcohol in the world disappeared. If all the alcohol was kept in China, I would have moved to China. I was unable to stop of my own accord until I found SR and the people here who helped me so much. I go to AA, see a therapist and post here on SR. You can definitely quit for good and feel good about it, no matter what recovery path you decide to take.
Stick close to us and post as much as you like, even if you're drinking. We are here for you as you go through this next chapter.