Mamahawk,
I know the feeling of using this forum like crazy, but it helps SOOOO much
being able to say what I was feeling or going through helped tremendously, because my husband is a square and has never done a drug in his life, he hesitates to take a tylenol, but really never gets sick either, do he didn't understand how I got hooked to the pills or why! So when I had the worst of it going on he wasn't someone I could talk to, thankfully I'm a mom of 3 youngest being 4 and they KEEP me busy so I didn't have much down time, and I noticed while the older 2 were at school it helped for me to get my youngest out of the house or go shopping to keep my mind busy, he spent lots of days out and about or riding his bike playing out side, so sometimes just getting out of the house and getting some sun light will do a world of difference, I pray for you and I know you'll get through the storm just fine
God Bless!