Originally Posted by
Cow 
One Square, I a severe anhedonic with depression, mania and melancholia. Pretty much whole life. Was long time that drugs was workin' for me, but we all know how that end. But now, even in times of sobriety, I actual feel WORSE! What?! Crap! No fair! And yes, is hard to read how for others things eventual become bubbles and cakes while you still feeling like roadkill, waiting for you better times to arrive.
For Cow, I has to accept that I was treating organic mental/mood disorders with addiction to begin with, and that sobriety not gonna magic cure these disorders. I does think though, that getting clear and giving brain time to heal from many year of poisons and then try to build brain/mind/mood health is only thing we can do, yes?
Cow, I have read a lot your posts, I'm a member of the "Cow Fan Club". I love how you can inject a touch of humor amid the craziness of depression. It's truly inspirational and thank you for that!