So this gets better? Where do I start on working on myself? You know the sad part, he has had doctor's appointments lately because of a medical issue and the seizure he had and I took time off from work to take him to an appt. which meant I cancelled my therapy appointment. I guess that's the only thing I can do right now. I'm an emotional wreck. It's like I was a zombie for 5 years and I just woke up and I'm overwhelmed with grief. I don't want to ruin my babies' lives. I want to be happy for them because they deserve nothing less. Where do I begin?