sorry to hear of what you're going thur LOSTDREAM.
I had semilar experience with the court system.
Another dramatic victim play.
The judge didn't even hear one word from me.
I was thrown out of my own home, like I was some type
on intruder.
WTF??? just go grab your stuff in a bags.
I purchased almost every damn thing in our home.
Where the hell is the freaken judge, now???
she lost the townhouse
she laid there not moving as she was being avited
she lost the cars
she had no food in the house
She got demoted in her job
I found her sleeping in her car last week with plastic bags of
what she has left.
Many, many threats of ending her life.
She cutted her self
It took everything out of me to let go or stop loving her.
I didn't know how the stop loving her.
As the song say.."there's only so tears you, til the heartache is over"
It was the turning piont me as it was for her.
I had to love her more than I could ever imagain, to let go so
she could be free.
The ironic thing is....
The same police officers that came to the townhouse
3 years ago, saw the beast in it's state, last week.
They almost fainted. LMAO, Only having to listen to her for
only 15 mins. It got even worst than that, as she dug deeper.
I'm happy to say. She has 9 days clean, sober and no gamling, today.
I had to get the FK out of the way so the miracle can happen
and stay the heck out of the way.
She's going thur a lot and wants me to fix her as before.
No...I can't fix her today. it's hard for me as will.
I need to work on me.
For the first time in a long time, she's realizing or saying
she didn't know how much she loves me. She's finally
admitting or seeing the distructions.
Yes, the damn tornado has ended...but holy ****, there's lot
of wrackage. I am not the same....I'm not in love with her,
attached, or can hold her like I used too. Ironic !!!
She is a child of god
She is sick and needs help......not from me.
I wish no punishment, guilt or shame upon her.
She dose that on her own enough as it is. The disease feeds on it.
My forgivness of her is not for her, it's for me. I know I can't
carry that resentment or bitterness inside of me,
right or wrong.
I pray for her just the same.