so much empathy for you both... I was feeling exactly like you one morning last Sept. had just called in sick for work and was absolutely devastated that I had let alcohol get me in its grips again. With God's grace found this place and made the commitment to never have to feel like that ever again. Keep reading and posting. There are loads of people here with solid sober time that can guide you and suggest more tools to keep you on the right track. God bless
