The most difficult part of being addicted to alcohol for me was coming to the realization that being addicted means part of my brain is actively working against my plan to stop drinking. Actively. It speaks to me in my head, trying to convince me that I should drink again. It's like a voice in my head. My Alcoholic Voice.
It does not live in the part of my brain that processes logic, or reason, or morals, or inhibitions. It doesn't comprehend any of that. It just understands the compulsion to drink, and it uses whatever tools it has to compel me to do what it wants - drink.
It lies, bargains, threatens, whines, begs, flatters, and romances - whatever it thinks I want to hear. It can't be reasoned with, placated, educated, silenced, or trusted.
It must be starved.
My addiction has been talking in my head for more than 25 years. In all that time it has not told me one true thing. Not one.
My life improved dramatically when I stopped taking advice from a liar. I highly recommend it.
Best of Luck on Your Journey!
