Originally Posted by
Lisbon 
...Already telling myself im not like everyone else on SR, i just joined in a moment of weakness,
It wasn't a moment of weakness. As you stated in your first post:
"Today, after months of consideration..."
Months of consideration. So joining was a moment of strength, not weakness. What you are experiencing is the deceptive tricks of addiction, the crazy dance of quit and relapse that we have all gone through. Recognize this, stay true to your committment. Tell yourself, "People without a problem with alcohol don't have arguements in their heads about drinking or not. People without a problem with alcohol don't struggle to
not drink."
You do. That puts you in the problem category.
Stay strong.