40th birthday
So today was my 40th birthday and I really thought my CA-boyfriend would at least remember and leave a message. It'll be 3 weeks tomorrow that I have gone without answering his texts, calls and pleas but he has at least called 2-3 times per week and left messages. Not sure why I keep doing this to myself - getting my hopes up that he'll hit rock bottom and try to get clean. He insists that he needs to do it "his way". Which means nothing. His definition of rehab is only smoking once a day - his wake up. Which in reality probably means 3,4,5.... A day.