Thanks, for all the supportive replys. I'm not sure if it's too late my marriage or not. My wife has put up with my alcohol abuse on and off since we first met. I'm not somebody that drinks everyday but if I decide to have a couple of beers on a Friday night it turns into 20. I have done a lot of things whilst been intoxicated that I regret. Letting go and trying to forgive myself will be a battle in its own right. Again, thanks for all the support guys.