I have been to a few aa meetings and just hit day 30 with some tough news. But dealing with issues sober and living in reality is the only way we can. Drinking can cover up problems but doesn't provide solutions. I too was the verge of losing my family. I am glad the light bulb finally went off. Just do it. 1 day at a time. Talk to someone if you need to. Use the website and other resources. You are in control and not alcohol. I wish you the best. 1 day at a time is right no matter how cliche.