I needed to decide I was done with alcohol completely, that I wanted and deserved a life without addiction, that I was going to get it, and nothing would ever stop me.
Not only was I done with all the misery of alcoholism, I was going to get the good stuff that goes with sobriety too.
You can do it too, glasshalffull. I know you can. Make a plan and do things that people who don't ever drink do. Start there.