No not really. Despite my struggles I know life itself is genuinely beautiful.
I consider myself lucky to be alive and in good health . I have so many blessings that I selfishly ignored for way to long. Every time I find myself feeling down or sorry for myself or upset at some obscure thing (finances etc) I look at my wife and two sons. The trees outside, an awesome song I find and blast at full volume for no reason, enjoying just MOMENTS.
Sounds corny lol