And yes. My husband is constantly ( at least 4-5 times a month) accusing me of cheating.
And yes, it hurts beyond what I can even express.
I used to think it was because of his x, but after five years now....I just think ...I don't know what I think. I just think I feel really hurt about it. Almost numb. Almost like it is the norm. I've just gotten used to it and now that I'm actually seeing my words in writing, I see how much it is damaging me.