All right, Bradley, I'll be the one to ask...what are you doing for your recovery? If you have no one to talk to, I'm assuming you have not sought out face-to-face support, which for many of us, is crucial for us kicking the drink for good.
And if you are going to beg off going to a recovery program, or AA, or IOP, at least make use of SR. Join the monthly newcomers support group, post daily, draw on the support here. Posting after you have drank and bemoaning the fact isn't furthering your recovery.