I wasn't trying to be a downer or question your ability. I guess I didn't (still don't) understand why you would go on suboxone only to jump from such a high dose so quickly after starting. No offense, but what was the point? It seems counterproductive to get on such a long lasting drug if you are not going to taper slowly and deliberately down to as low a level as you can get. If i was going to deal with full on withdrawals i would want to do it from a short acting drug to get it over with.
Anyway, i really do wish you luck.