It's very hard for most of us to recover in isolation. When you say the "real" world, you make an important point. Web support can be an important component of recovery, but it seems like it isn't working as a mainstay of recovery for you, and that's the case for lots of people I suspect - for me it was too. For lots of folks, the rubber doesn't meet the road until you're sitting across from a living, breathing person and talking about your addiction. Especially if you find yourself socially isolated, being around other people in recovery would be very valuable for you - we all crave that attention - it's normal and necessary to nurture you emotionally. Sobriety is worth all the work but it is hard - you need help! Is going to a recovery or support group something you would consider? If so PM me with a rough idea of where you are in the world and I can point you in the right direction for support in your area of the world.