Avery I agree w/ Opio. It sounds like you are where I was about a week ago, and that w/d is wat pushed me to want this done quickly! I don't care if you have to drag yourself up, throw on clothes and cry the whole time please try to go out for your bday. I believe it WILL help!
Get ANGRY with the pills and the feelings. This is a FIGHT! People here care, that is so much of what is keeping me going. This is not easy but I keep thinking whatever I do... DON"T go backwards... even if it means staying where I am another day.
Opio---It's calling. Still calling. Does it ever stop? That feeling of (u know) that we yearn for? For me it all comes back to H.. I took another 1/4 this afternoon, and am going as long as I can tonight without more... We shall see how I end up. It helped handing the bottle over (obviously) and only having 3 left.