I'm sorry for your pain Teddy. Thats tough for anyone to deal with - but the key is with dealing with it....you'll feel sad, you'll come to terms you'll move on.
Drinking will keep you stuck in that initial feeling pain phase...every time you sober up, the pain will return and you'll need to apply the 'medicine' again.
Don't drink on this Teddy - I lost a couple of years that way.
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