Oh Chicory, you're the most loving and giving person, I know. This is a heartbreaking situation to say the least. I wish I had answer for you, but I think in time, you'll find your own.
I know when I'm conflicted and can't seem to find an answer or make a decision, I let it be, until it's shown to me. The constant turmoil drives me crazy. Please don't beat yourself up, it serves no purpose but to make us feel worse. We certainly don't need anymore of that.
