Don't throw 258 days away Teddy. I'm real close to you on the amount of days. Right around 252 days, I think.
I too, have a failed relationship during this period. We got along famously when we were both drinking. When we both quit it went downhill over 4 months or so. There's not a day go by that I don't remember her fondly and am always thinking "what if".
A few weeks back, mourning over the relationship, I went through a rough couple of weeks where all I wanted to do was pick up.
The fear of picking up that first drink and what would happen to me was enought to scare me sober. But it was white knuckling all the way.
Just say no to the urges. They shall pass.