The First Step
I am sipping on my last tall boy. I am not enjoying it because I feel sad that I will never drink again. I am sure this issue has been re-hashed, but how do you busy yourself when you aren't drinking? I have tried cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, etc. The only honest moment that I didn't want to drink was when I was with my girlfriend. I know it sounds silly, but there isn't anything else I have tried without complete resentment (after WEEKS of forcing myself to do it) that compares to my relationship. I know I am co-dependent, but you know what! **** IT! I'd rather be sober and co-dependent than drunk and isolated. Any advice is welcomed.
I have been to 7 AA meetings; the people are great ... but all they talk about is the Big Book. I find little solace in the Big Book, in SMART recovery, and other groups. I am sorry for the visual, but it is all mental masturbation. If I wanted to hear the same **** every day, I would be a philosophy professor.