Hi again, ty for your ideas... right now Im at my cousins for a couple of days cause I woke up with such deep depression.... I feel so so, cause Im not alone... Im even afraid to go home... so I hope to get back to meetings on a regular basis... you know what AA says... we come for drinking we stay for our thinking... so Im praying it helps me.... and I hope to continue coming here because you all seem so compassiate and understanding. Ty wpainter, but I cant even laugh anymore... and I come from a very funny family... Oh God help me get joy back in my life!!!