Thank you guys, so much. Nearly in tears from reading your comments. Thank you for helping me keep my mind right. It makes me sad to think of when I was a SAHM and I was so isolated that I couldn't see reality. At least I am seeing it now. I do feel better every day that I'm not in the same house with him. Every time he is nice for a few days, I start letting my guard down and being nice back. Then BOOM I am reminded that he's an abusive jerk. I need to be easier on myself and see him for what he is and not let his anger and blame affect me. I've never heard that analogy about the unflattering mirror - that is so true.