Emmy, re-read this and pretend you didn't write it. You will read a story about a person who made a mistake that ANY HUMAN BEING COULD MAKE AT ANY GIVEN TIME and got a completely disproportionate, BS response from someone whose sole purpose in life appears to be belittling and demeaning her in order to keep her feeling crappy about herself despite the great strides she has made away from him and towards her true independent self.
He makes you "feel unlovable"; that's a fact. But you are not, in fact, unlovable. If there is a mirror in your house that is patently unflattering, you'd remove it in favor of one that helps you feel your best self. It's the same with people. Limiting the time spent at the mercy of people who makes us feel like doo-doo is the best gift we can give ourselves, especially in the early stages of recovery.