I am sober 3 days now. Last Wednesday night I "quit" and went out again. I had been doing the bare minimum step work and because I have a 7 week old baby had all the excuses in the world for not "diving in". I am meeting with my sponsor tomorrow and told him that I am done dictating the pace of this and no matter what it takes I am going to do as he says and put this first. I don't know what that means exactly whether its 90 meetings in 90 days, boundaries and limits...I have no idea. I just know that my version on how to do this work always leads to relapse and failure.