we go no contact for US - for our sanity - so we break free of it all. earlier you posted about wanting to send him a gift basket, now you are questioning NO contact - you are itching to go back for more.
the only one who can give you closure is........YOU. he won't hear your words, or GET the meaning you are trying to convey and he certainly won't be able to wrap it up all nice n tidy and say the things you want to make you ok. that's why we skip all that part, and work on accepting it for what it was, and that it is now over and then move forward.
as it is you going over the same ole ground, stuck in circular thinking about him and HIS problems. that's not where you answers lie. and there are no NO CONTACT police, hon! it's a suggestion that has worked very well for others. you are free to do exactly as you please....as long as you are willing to accept the consequences and possible disappointments when it doesn't go your way.