Hi LuLu,
Listen to what chicory says. As far as I can tell, you are the only one who is convinced you are dying. I would just focus on staying sober for now. Let the Drs handle whatever you think may be ailing you. Just be sure to let the Dr know how long and how much you have been drinking. It is important for them to know so they can make a proper assessment of your condition. And please try to stay away from the internet searching for what is wrong with you. I wish you all the best. Try to relax and be comfortable with yourself. Okay? You are doing great by not drinking. Just don't start drinking again when you find out you are not dying. You made a good start, plan to keep it that way.