Struggling with happiness too....
My wife returned home from a 30 rehab last Thursday and is now 41 days sober. I am so happy for her but am constantly having a pity party for me. She continues to blame me for her entering treatment even though it was a volunteer center. Blames me for the hard time she is having with people knowing she entered rehab. I have been going to al-anon and trying to follow the leave them alone advice but my old controlling and co-dependent nature is popping up. She is just so distant. She won't allow me to ask simple questions or let me in on anything. Long story short we are disconnected which I'm sure is to be expected but I'm still as lonely as I was when she was drinking and gone to rehab. I am trying to fill the void with God but I just miss her so much. I know time tables don't exist but any advice is helpful.