You Can do this Kat! Love yourself the way you would want someone else to love you, that is what I try to keep in mind. Be kind, patient, understanding, etc, with yourself.
Good for you, having a plan. And stick around... there are lots of people who make good friends here at SR, who have been where you are.
A great book, "Codependent no more" by Melody Beaty --I read it again, every once in a while, when I am struggling with being happy... it is amazing. I think they say that its the largest seller next to the Bible? not sure where I heard that, but I would not be surprised. very nice read, great stuff.
hugs, and have a good day today!