help
Need help and advice. Tommorrow I will try to stop drinking. I'm 39 and and slowly killing myself. God i hate alcohol. Today a had 20cl vodka with breakfast, then another 20cl after i woke 3 hours later. Now I'm having 4 cans of 5 percent lager and some whiskey. Just feel so ill without it, and as soon as I have the drink the pain goes. Hate myself, really do. I used to be so fit that when I woke I felt I could run all day, now I'm a mess.