One week sober and barely hanging on...
So, as the thread title says, I'm "celebrating" a week of sobriety today. It hardly feels like a celebration, though. The terror and anxiety I'm experiencing are brutal, as well as the physical symptoms that plague me. My mind runs on an obsessive loop: What have I done to myself? Will I heal? Can I even do this??? I admit, dark thoughts of just letting it all go to hell cross my mind, but I'm not going to go back down that road, not again. I've run out of bottoms to hit.
Going for another AA, tomorrow. I've got to do this. As bad as things are, I choose life.
Thank you so much to all who responded so supportively to my earlier thread ("New and needing help!"). You got me through this hellish last week, and I can't express my gratitude for your kindness. You are a great bunch of folks and I feel so lucky to have found you!
P.S. Any further words of wisdom and/or support are, of course, gratefully received!
--Mercy