Same as free owl you are 20 years ahead compared to me.
You can void so much health complications, the relationship problems, the money, my god the money I put into this addiction is ridiculous.
My house would be paid, I would be living the dream!
Let go of this for good, you don't need it to live a normal life, I used to think It was the thing, got me to socialize. Now 20 years later I don't even know how to live normally without the liquid courage.
Happy for you my wise young friend ;-)